... struggling to find normal.Oh my gosh - this is so hard. If you visit here very often, you may have seen my last post for Cranberry Eggnog Bread, which was also about my sister in law's illness.
Unfortunately, we lost Janet on January 25th. Honestly, I just can't find words for this, which is why it has been more than a month since my last post. Before anything else in blogging, I'm a writer, so you would think I would be able to define my feelings and communicate them to people. But I can't seem to do that in a way that seems worthy of the loss.
I think it's because I keep thinking I have to "big-picture' this and come up with some grand summation of what she meant to me, and how impossible it seems that she is gone. All I can come up with are small pieces that slip from my grasp when I try to hold onto them.
On the other hand, I have to get back to work. Blogs have to have fresh content or bad things happen to them in terms of traffic and lots of other factors. And it's not fair for me to ask people to follow my blog if I am going to neglect it. If I had a regular jo...